busy busy busy….

Wow, it’s been a little while since I’ve posted anything.  I have been on AT orders at my Army unit.  I don’t really have time to write much today, I’m fixing to go to a friends house and get plastered.  I really need a cold one….I have needed a drink everyday for the past few days in fact.  I just want to go have a good time when I get off work…..School is fixing to start for me and I’ll slow down then….Anyway, I’ve got shit to do, places to go, and people to see, so this is all for now!

New Constellation…NICE!

See it yourself here…

I’d like to show this to that dumbass in my unit that bugs the crap out of me every stinkin day!  I know he’s just trying to help and he’s not trying to get on my nerves, but damn!  Hopefully someone will be able to keep him busy enough for the next few days that he won’t have time to bother me.  Maybe I’ll just keep myself busy enough to avoid him.  Enough on that subject…

And here I go again being pathetically depressed about something stupid.  It just seems like finding someone that I’m compatible with, and that accepts me for who I am without wanting to change me, and that treats me decent is taking for freaking ever.  I’ve been divorced over a year and have dated people since but they have been duds.  I’ve been happier since I’ve been single, but I’m ready to move on now…..I guess what I’m trying to say is that right now my life is sucking.  Waiting on people to call me, or ask me out, or just anything…It all just sucks.  Although, maybe the long wait will pay off in the end….I’m going to stop now before I make myslef look even more pathetic. 

Until next time…Happy Blogging!

Just shut up already!

OK, today was the first day of Annual Training for me….I had an alright day until another Sergeant started pissing me off!  We had all just gotten out of a legal briefing about wills and poa’s and we were doing some other stuff to get ready for the rest of the week…This sergeant just decided to keep bugging the shit out me!  I try not to be a bitch when I’m at work. I try not to be mean to anyone.  I wanted to take this guys freaking head and smash it into the damn brick wall because he wouldn’t shut up!  Oh well…..next time I’m just going to tell him to leave me the hell alone and go talk to someone else. 

Right before that, I told these 2 soldiers to get up and help the rest of us move some stuff from one building to another and damn if they didn’t freaking listen to me.  The asinine sergeant had to tell them right after I did to help because they didn’t fucking listen to me!  I just have to get in the mindset that if damn soldiers don’t listen to me, I have no choice but to put my foot down and make them or give them a counseling for not listening to me.  I AM A SERGEANT, THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO JUMP WHEN I SAY JUMP AND THE ONLY QUESTION I SHOULD GET FROM THEM ABOUT ME TELLING THEM TO JUMP IS “HOW HIGH SERGEANT?”!  Shit!

Tomorrow has to be better…..I hope it’s better anyway….I’ll just have to put on the bitch hat if it’s not…..I hate doing that!

That’s enough for now….Til next time….

Happy Blogging!

So much fun…

Well, I have had a great weekend.  I worked Friday, then came home and got ready to go out.  I went out with my cousin Friday night.  First we went to a bar and played pool, then we left and went to a club and danced our asses off.  We had a blast.  We stayed out until about 4:30 then got back to my house a little after 5 and crashed til around 11 Saturday morning.  We got hair cuts, feet/leg massages, then got ready to go out again.  Her husband is in a band, so Saturday night we went and listened to them play.  They had a gig at a birthday party for a girl that just turned 21.

The party was at a building that the birthday girl rented out.  The owner of the building was a total dickhead.  There was no alcohol allowed in the building, and you couldn’t have cups that weren’t bought from the owner, so everyone bought ice water, went outside, poured out the water, replaced it with the alcohol of their choice, and went back inside.  I had a new drink that I’ve never had before.  The birthday girl made it.  They called it the bucket drink.  It was Seagram’s VO, Sprite, Mt Dew, and Mint leaves.  They put it in a metal bucket with some ice, shook it up, and everyone took a drink from the bucket.  It was really good.  Generally though, I stuck with beer….I did have one screwdriver too though.  Except for the asshole owner, I had loads of fun.  I always have fun when I go see the band play.

Friday night I saw 2 guys from my home town that were a few years younger than me, that was a little weird.  I also saw a guy I used to date, he was a bouncer at the club.  Saturday night I saw my high school best friends little brother, and a guy my little brother used to do karate with.  All in all I had a great weekend.  I guess I’m fixing to get ready and go see my mom for a little while.  I haven’t seen her in a while…

Until next time….Happy Blogging!

Still not talking…

Well, I haven’t spoken to my little brother since we had our big argument the other day.  I did get a phone call from my dad asking me about it.  He keeps telling me that I only have one brother and we should make up.  I will call my brother, but I’m going to wait a few days.  I called him the day after the fight to ask him where he put something in my house b/c I couldn’t find it, but then we quickly hung up. 

I hate not talking to my brother, but at the same time….I will call him in a day or two.  I just want to give him time to cool off.  When I told Dad that I hadn’t called or talked to little bro yet, he acted like he got upset at me…THIS SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, I’m going out tonight.  I’ll have fun, drink a little and probably dance a little too.  I want to get drunk, but I’m sure I’ll have to drive so that puts getting drunk out of the picture for me.  Guess that’s it for now….

I don’t know why I even do this web log….I don’t think anyone ever looks at it.  Oh well, it’s a way for me to vent without putting anyone through the burden of listening to me…..

~Till next time~

Sleep deprived, depressed…and some other stuff…

What do you do when you know someone that is very depressed and refuses to talk to anyone about it?  What about when this same person gets practically no sleep and won’t answer the phone when people try to call and make sure everything is ok?  All I can think is that I need to do something to help this person, but I don’t know what to do.  This person knows they can call me anytime they need to, or at least I think they know they can…

I know what it’s like to be severely depressed, I know what it’s like to not be able to go to sleep until your body reaches beyond the point of exhaustion.  I know what it’s like to feel like you can’t talk to anyone, but even though I know these things because I have gone through them…I’m still at a loss as to what to do to help this person.  I feel like if I try talking to them, they will just make a big joke out of it.  Like I’m the sappy girl  that thinks she can save everyone or something.  I have already put it out there that I’m here if they need or want to talk to someone.  They should know that they can call me anytime.  Beyond that…..I just don’t know. 

I hope that this, like everything else, will find a way to work itself out…

Until next time…   

Aren’t kids sweet……sometimes?

I taught my second Little Reader class at work today.  All of the kids kept hugging me and trying to sit in my lap.  It just makes me feel so good when they do stuff like that.  Tuesday when I taught them, they were a little cranky, all of them wanted their way, and a few of them cried when I didn’t let them have their way.  Today though, they were a lot better…happy, full of smiles, and they all wanted to tell me stories about what happened in their lives in the past few days.  No tears today, no attitudes, it was just great!

It’s sad that I won’t see any of them for about two weeks.  I have AT starting tomorrow, and I won’t be finished with that until the end of the month.  I hope they remember me when I come back to class to teach them.  I guess this is it for now…..

Until next time…Happy Blogging!

30 Days….

I just watched the new series that the FX Network has started…perhaps you’ve heard of it, “30 Days.”  The episode I watched tonight was about an Atheist woman that went to live with a Christian family for 30 days.  During this time, the Atheist woman went to Church, Bible Study, and sat at the breakfast/lunch/dinner table with the christian family while they prayed.  I thought it was a little….different(is that a good word?) to see that when they went to church, the Atheist was taking notes just like the Christian woman was….When she went to Bible Study, (they decided to call it a book club whose book of choice happened to be the Bible) the Atheist decided to ask the christian people to say that they know 100% that they are going to Heaven when they die…When they all said they had no proof, it was just their faith, the Atheist did what all non-believers do, “so you have no proof…)(or words to that effect.)When the Christians posed the same question to the Atheist, (to prove her beliefs) she claimed pretty much the same thing, it’s just how she believed and how she thinks, there’s no proof…..IRONIC….Make fun of and bash someone for their lack of proof, while at the same time you have no proof yourself…..(maybe ironic isn’t the right word to use….”funny”"stupid”"ignorant”  how bout you pick one out that you think fits….

I would not want to go live with a strange family for 30 days, nor would I want some strange person to come and live with me and my family for 30 days…..The host/creator of this show started out doing the 30 days of eating nothing but fast foods….now he’s doing crazy shit to other people’s lives.  I guess you/I can’t blame him for doing this to other people b/c these people are the ones that want to do this to themselves….Again, I say the word CRAZY.

I was too stunned and lazy to change the channel, and now for some reason I am watching the same episode again……too lazy to change the channel….

If I wanted to see how other people with different beliefs lived I would look it up on the web, or ask someone I know that lives and believes differently than me. 

This show is kind of dumb in my opinion, but my opinion means just as much as everyone else’s does…..to me it means something, to you it means pretty much nothing I’m sure….

I would love to be able to say that I dislike it simply because it’s a reality show, but there are some reality shows that I am addicted to….This, however, is just not one of them….SORRY!

I have to get up early and study for my final exam, so this is all I’ll post for now….

Until next time…HAPPY BLOGGING!

Are you seeing double?

For all of you cat lovers…

Unitl next time….Happy Blogging!