Bored….

Well, I’m not supposed to be bored right now….I’m probably supposed to be busy…but, we all know how that goes sometimes…Well, I know how that goes anyway.

So, I had a really tough night last night.  My damn emotions started freaking out on me.  I had a very emotionally charged night.  I have two friends that sent me text messages and tried to make me feel better, but even though they tried their hardest, nothing they said made me feel any better…..

I had talked to my boyfriend earlier in the night, but as soon as we hung up the phone, I felt horrible again…..Finally though, he called me back.  he had to play pool for his team in the league he participates in, so I didn’t tell him I was having a bad night the first time he called because I knew he couldn’t stay on the phone.  But he was all ears when he called me back after he won his game.  He listened to my crying and he let me have my pity party, then he made me feel better.  He’s good at making me feel great.  He always knows how to make me laugh or smile when I’m having a bad day/night.  He’s wonderful to me.

Then I woke up at 4:37 a.m. this morning, picked up my cell phone to see what time it was, and saw that I had just gotten a text from him….it was an amazing text that made it hard for me to fall back asleep….We text-ed back and forth for a little bit, said our I love yous, and by that time I had to get up and get ready for work. 

I’m leaving Monday to go see him….I’ll be spending my birthday with him, I’m so excited!  I am so ready to jump into his arms and give him the biggest hug and kiss, and never let him go!!!!  I told him that, he reminded me that I can’t jump because my foot is messed up….so I told him I would run into his arms, and he had to remind me again that I can’t run….I hate being crippled like this.  I have decided that I will just grab hold of him and squeeze until I can’t squeeze anymore!

My brother has told my dad that I have talked seriously about moving in with my boyfriend.  Dad asked me about it today…He just came out and said, so your brother says you’re going to move up there….I was shocked!  I told him that yes, I would probably move sometime within the year.  Then I proceeded to talk to Dad about everything that is making want to move sooner rather than later.  I skipped all the stuff about wanting to be closer to my boyfriend, because a daughter has to know her limits when talking to her daddy!

He didn’t disagree with me….all he said was that I would probably have to pay outrageous out of state tuition…..I agreed with him.  But, I also started thinking to myself…I know that when you make a huge life decision, like moving in with your boyfriend who lives in another state and transferring schools, you have to take the good with the bad, and follow your heart at the same time.  I know the tuition costs would be outstanding.  I know that I would be leaving all of my friends.  I know that moving means my family will be at least 6 hours away form me….BUT!!!! 

Some of the reasons I want to move include these things:

1.  My brother and I are living together again after not living together for 8 years, and we are arguing and fighting all the time, I don’t want to live in a house where people constantly yell at each other.  I had a marriage like that, and I REFUSE to live like that with my little brother.

2.  Lately it feels like all of my friendships are one-sided.  Like it’s only convenient for my friends to be my friends when it’s convenient for them…..They call me when they need or want something….I call them just to say hi because I haven’t talked to them in a few days since their last crisis.  I have one friend that calls me just to say hello, and she’s my cousin.  Sad huh?

3.  I feel like my parents blame me for everything….when my brother and I fight, it’s my fault…when my brother started smoking, it was automatically my fault because I smoke, when he got into some other trouble I won’t mention here, of course it was my fault….I can’t pick up the car from the airport because I have had plans for over a month to go out of town-bad daughter….I have 3 pets that get on my brother’s nerves(I have had all of my pets for several years, he knew they were there when he moved in with me) my fault, and I should get rid of my pets to make my brother happy….

4.  My Army unit is putting me through hell, and there’s pretty much nothing I can do about it.  I am trying to transfer units, but I have to wait on the commander to do that, and she’s put me on her shit list for some reason….She won’t even sign my paperwork that says I hurt my foot on active duty, so I haven’t been able to see a specialist about my hurt foot yet…BITCH!

Plus, the biggest reason of all is that I am so in love with my boyfriend, I mean, it hurts that I’m so far away from him right now….He makes me happy.  I feel like a better person when I’m around him.  I feel like myself when I’m around him.  I can just be me, and he’s happy with me.  I don’t have to prove myself, or act like someone or something that I’m not.  I can look into his eyes, and see myself….It’s just amazing….I’m so much happier when he’s with me…I can’t explain it any other way than that…It probably sounds crazy to a lot of you reading this, but everything I just said about him is true….I love him.  I need to be closer to him, and he actually wants me to be closer to him, he wants me the same way that I want him…It’s absolutely amazing!

So, when I go up there next week, we are going to go find some universities that are close to where he lives, and I’m going to try to talk to people about what would happen to my college hours if I did transfer….That was his idea.  He doesn’t want me to move up there with him if it’s going to put me further behind in school than I already am.  He told me that he won’t let either of us make bad decisions just because we want to be together, we still have to be smart about things.  I agree with him.  If it turns out that I will be hurt more than helped if I transfer, then I’ll try to hurry up and finish school here in Arkansas….but if I won’t lose too many hours, and I can get accepted into the College of Education at a university up there, then I will go ahead and transfer.  I’ll just ahve to wait and see, and hope someone has time to talk to me when I go up there the next couple of weeks….

Anyway, I need a cigarette, so I’m goin gto end this one here….I feel like I’ve typed enough today…..Until next time~Happy Blogging!~

Sloganizing….Again!

Hello all you bloggers out there!  I got such a good response to my post with the sloganize site’s link in it that I decided to post the link again with some new slogans that I got today when I revisited their site again!!!

Their Link:

http://www.thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi

or try the movie quote sloganizer page to insert a word of your choice into a movie line.  FUN STUFF!!!  Her is that link:

http://thesurrealist.co.uk/movie.php?

Some new slogans::::::::::

Love~~~~Because LOVE is complicated enough.

Hate~~~~Great HATE, great times.

Moody~~~~Try MOODY, you’ll like it.

Sex~~~~Everything we do is driven by SEX!

Fuck~~~~Wouldn’t you like to be a FUCK too?

HAHAHAHA!  I like that last two words I sloganized the best!  So, I thought I’d make the link a little easier to find for those of you that like the site.

Hope ya’ll enjoy it as much as I did…..AGAIN!!!!

Until next time~Happy Blogging!~

Latest pic of me being goofy…..

Oh, and a cool pic of my eyes……I think it’s cool anyway……

Yeah, I finally have a kissy face picture….consider my officially retarded…..

And the eye pic, I don’t care if ya don’t like it, I was playin with the color effects on my photo software and thought this looked good…so don’t look if ya don’t like it!!! LOL!

Until next time~~~Happy Blogging!~~~

I’m officially in love…..and have been for a while….

Well, I am 100% in love….I posted something about my first kiss and I getting back together a little while ago….Well, this post is about him and I too….We have been together now since April 13th, and I have been loving every minute of it!  I have never been this happy, I have never trusted someone to not hurt me or stab me in the back or use me like I trust him to not do those things….I know that he will love me the same if not more when he learns about a fault I might have….I know that his feelings will stay the same and not just disappear as soon as he’s around another person….I just know all this about him….I truly trust him with my heart….

He actually talks about me to his friends.  He kisses me and holds my hand even when he knows people are looking.  He looks at me when he thinks I’m not looking, and when I catch him he just smiles that sexy smile at me, he doesn’t try to look away….He knows exactly how to make me laugh, he knows how to cheer me up, he knows me almost as good as I know myself…And I love it!!!

We have been talking about me moving in with him, which means I would have to move out of state.  I really want to move and be closer to him, I hate being so far away from him….There are some things that scare me about moving though….

1.  What if he gets tired of me, like so many other men in my past seemed to have done?

2.  What will happen if I transfer and start going to an out of state college….how many of my hours would I lose in the transfer process?

3.  What if for some unknown reason we don’t work out….what will I do then?

I mean, there are some other things, but school is the main reason I have questions about moving….oh yeah, and that little first reason about me being afraid he will get tired of me…..I don’t really foresee that first one happening, but because I know that NOTHING is ever 100% certain, I have to consider it a possibility…..know what I mean? The same thing goes for my third listed reason….nothing is ever 100% certain…..

I have asked him if he has thought this whole thing through…you know like I have reminded him that I have pets that would probably have to come with me, one of them would definitely come..I reminded him of the fact that I do have a lot of stuff that he isn’t used to seeing in his house simply because of the fact that I’m a female….But I also let him know that he wouldn’t have to buy anything to go in a new place because I already have everything a house needs…furniture, dishes, blankets, tv’s, computers, you know just all the stuff for every room in a house/apartment….I have enough of that crap plus much much more….but most of it is in storage…..He told me that the only thing that he could foresee him having a problem with is the fact that I have a dog…but he also said that he understood that my pup would come with me if I move, so that’s good!!!!

I don’t know….I’m going to see him in a little less than a week….We are going to talk about a lot of things, we are even going to go look at some schools to see about my hours transferring….who knows, we may even go look at some apartments….Then he is coming back home to see me really soon after that so he can meet my parents and talk to them for the first time since we were in school together….I’m so nervous about that….My mom can be brutal to new people she meets….She always has my best interests at heart though…I told him about her brutal-ness (is that a word?)  He said he’s not worried, and that he understands why she is that way, because I’m her only daughter and she cares…Isn’t he sweet!!!  He seems to understand things better than I do sometimes…

Anyway, I know I haven’t posted anything in a while, I have been really busy lately…

Oh, BTW, I have a broken foot….Yup, a broken foot….I went to New Mexico with the Army, someone dropped a moving truck’s loading ramp on my right foot, and it’s really jacked up now….It hurt, I screamed “OUCH” really loud when it happened…I’m in a walking cast, and on crutches….I finally got some good feel better pills that I have been taking for the past few days…the first two prescriptions the Dr’s gave me weren’t worth a shit!!!  But I’m getting better…..

It’s kind of funny that my pup gets his cast off his leg after it was broken, and just a matter of a few weeks later my foot gets broke!!!  Karma sure is a bitch.  It was my fault that I had Kobe around that kid that broke his leg, so when he heals, I get my driving foot broken!!!  Weird huh?

Anyway, that’s all I have for now!!!  Until next time~Happy Blogging!~

Kisses, Gestures, Advice…..

WhaT evEry kisS MEanz
♥Kiss on the stomach = Im ready
♥Kiss on the Forehead = “I hope we’re together forever”
♥Kiss on the Ear = Your my everything
♥Kiss on the Cheek = “We’re friends”
♥Kiss on the Hand = “I adore you”
♥Kiss on the Neck = “We belong together”
♥Kiss on the Shoulder = “I want you”
♥Kiss on the Lips = I love you”

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♥What the gesture means♥
♥Holding Hands = “We definitely love each other”
♥Slap on the Butt = “That’s mine”
♥Holding on tight = “I don’t want to let go”
♥Looking into each other’s Eyes = “I just plain love you”
♥Playing with Hair = “Tell me you love me”
♥Arms around the Waist = “I love you too much to let go”
♥Laughing while Kissing = “I am completely comfortable with you”
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♥Advice♥
Dont ask for a kiss, take one.
If you were thinking about someone while reading this,
you’re definitely in Love.

Dessert…YUMMY!!!!

Dessert Pyschology:

Okay everyone, just for fun , time to take the DESSERT TEST……..

DON’T PEEK AT THE ANSWERS!

I have no idea who the “psychiatrists” are who
Supposedly did this, but it is fun!

If all of the desserts listed below were sitting in
Front of you, which would you choose (Sorry, you can
Only pick one!).

Trust me…this is very accurate. Pick your dessert,
Then look to see what psychiatrists think about you.

Pick your Favorite and see what it means!!!!!! Here are your choices:

1. Angel Food Cake
2. Brownies
3. Lemon Meringue pie
4. Vanilla cake with Chocolate Icing
5. Strawberry Short Cake
6. Chocolate on Chocolate
7. Ice Cream
8. Carrot Cake

No, you can’t change your mind once you scroll down,
So think carefully what your choice will be.

OK – Now that you’ve made your choice this is what
Research says about you..

1. ANGEL FOOD CAKE — Sweet, loving, cuddly. You love
All warm and fuzzy items. A little nutty at times.
Sometimes you need an ice cream cone at the end of
The day. Others perceive you as being childlike and
Immature at times.

2. BROWNIES — You are adventurous, love new ideas,
Are achampion of underdogs and a slayer of dragons.
When tempers flare up you whip out your saber. You are
Always the oddball with a unique sense of humor and
Direction. You tend to be very loyal.

3. LEMON MERINGUE — Smooth, sexy, & articulate with
Your hands, you are an excellent after-dinner speaker
And a good teacher. But don’t try to walk and chew gum
At the same time. A bit of a diva at times, but you
Have many friends.

4. VANILLA CAKE WITH CHOCOLATE ICING — Fun-loving,
Sassy, humorous, not very grounded in life; very
Indecisive and lack motivation. Everyone enjoys
Being around you, but you are a practical joker.
Others should be cautious in making you mad. However,
You are a friend for life.

5. STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE — Romantic, warm, loving. You
Care about other people, can be counted on in a pinch
And expect the same in return. Intuitively keen. Can
Be very emotional.

6. CHOCOLATE ON CHOCOLATE — Sexy; always ready to
Give and receive. You are very creative, adventurous,
Ambitious, and passionate. You can appear to have a
Cold exterior but are warm on the inside. Not afraid
To take chances. Will not settle for anything average
In life. Love to laugh.

7. ICE CREAM — You like sports, whether it be
Baseball, football,basketball, or soccer. If you
Could, you would like to participate, but you enjoy
Watching sports. You don’t like to give up the remote
Control. You tend to be self-centered and high
Maintenance.

8. CARROT CAKE — You are a very fun loving person,
Who likes to laugh. You are fun to be with. People
Like to hang out with you. You are a very warm
Hearted person and a little quirky at times. You have
Many loyal friends.

In the News again:Bobbitt Wives need to stay away from knives!!

Bobbitt Family Update

In a not so recent news broadcast, it was announced that Lorena Bobbitt’s sister Louella was arrested for an alleged attempt to perform the same act on her husband as her famous sister had done several years ago. Sources reveal the sister was not as accurate as Lorena.

She allegedly missed the target and stabbed her husband in the upper thigh causing severe muscle and tendon damage. The husband is reported to be in serious, but stable condition, and Louella has been charged with …..
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A Misdewiener!