Distance really sucks sometimes…

Well….I don’t really know where to start….I am dating the best man in the world….We were meant for each other…..we also live 6 hours apart.  It’s not exactly like we can just hop in the car and go to the other ones house whenever we feel like it.  he came to see me a couple of weeks ago, and I’m going to see him in a couple of weeks….we do see each other once or twice a month for anywhere from a few days to a few weeks at a time.   But, each time we see each other and then leave to go back to our respective homes, the time we are apart feels even longer than the time before….

For instance; it has only been nine days since I saw him last, but it feels like it has been a whole month.  I have been in a funk for the past week.  I will probably be in this funk for the next couple of weeks.  It’s like a part of me is missing when I’m away from him.  I just miss him so much it hurts.

I always thought that that phrase, “I miss him/her so much it hurts,” was the silliest phrase.  I never thought that the people that said it knew what they were talking about.  But, now I know….when I say that phrase, “I miss him so much it hurts,” I really mean that I miss him so much it hurts.

Every morning when I wake up and get ready for class, I feel like packing a bag and getting in my car to go see him.  I also always used to think that long distance relationships were the dumbest thing in the world to try and make work.  But now, I know that long distance relationships can work, as long as the two people in the relationship both want it to work.  He and I both want our relationship to work, we both want a future with the other one in it.  We will have a future together, eventually….it just sucks waiting for eventually to happen…It’s hard being this far away from the person I love…I’d give anything to be with him right now, and make the six hours between us just disappear.

I’m just venting my frustrations….being a little sappy…..and having a bit of a “girl” moment….

Well, I just got off the phone with him…we talked for about 45 minutes or so…I told him my plans for this coming weekend…I feel guilty because he came down and surprised me one weekend because he missed me so bad….I feel like I should go up and see him this weekend.  I want to go see him this weekend, but I have already told some of my friends that I would go out with them this weekend because it’s one of their birthdays.  Plus, I would have to board my pup over the weekend, from Friday morning through Monday morning if I went up to see him….

His birthday is the first week in October, but I can’t be with him on his b-day because it’s on a Thursday and I have class…I thought about going up there to surprise him the weekend after his birthday though….I don’t know…..What the heck should I do? Should I go up to see him this weekend, and just tell my friends I can’t go out with them? or should I just wait  to go see him next weekend since it’s right after his b-day?  I’m kind of leaning towards going next weekend because I know he has tickets to a major league baseball game this weekend, and he is going to go to it with his brother….but I don’t know if he already has plans for the weekend after his birthday…..I feel like I’m being a horrible girlfriend…I have no idea what to do….

I miss him so much I want to drive up to see him right frigging now.  But I feel like I’ll be letting my friends down if I cancel on one of their birthdays….What do you think?

I’ll end it here….I have a test to study for….If you’ve taken the time to read this whole post with all my whining in it, leave me some comments please….

Until next time~Happy Blogging~